This is a dynamic i rejected for years due to having no desire for age play, but i am now starting to believe that the concept of a Mommy/boy dynamic is exactly what i need and yearn for. How so?

I recognize at an early age (6) that i did not have an emotional connection with my mother, which resulted in a lack of comfort/safety on an emotional level, and i have essentially (on a subconscious level) yearned for it ever since. When i speak of this, i am referring to a deep rooted emotional connection based on nurture and care, but also one of loving female authority. Overall, a need that has never been met for me, and i have therefore been chasing it my entire life without necessarily being able to recognize and/or articulate it.

i believe this need can manifest itself in many different ways as one goes through life from child to adult. For me, i was certainly confused during my puberty years (we all are, but i believe i had the added layer of dealing with a early childhood need that was not met), and i did some interesting things. One example: at the age of 6, having admired the loving motherly bond between my aunt and her enfant, i sneaked a diaper into the washroom and put it on. i emphasize the age of 6 here because, at that point, i was not exposed to any porn, i was not an adult trying to escape adult responsibility, nor any of the other stereotype explanations i hear; rather, i was simply a very young kid who symbolically associated the diaper with something much deeper in his overall needs. And interestingly enough, i did not have (nor do i have) a fetish/desire to wear diapers.

Overall, i believe this has resulted in me having a strong desire for a power dynamic that carries, as one of its pillars, a framework similar to a mother/boy relationship – one that has an inherent and primal level of trust and emotional security. my proclivities have not manifested to a point to where i desire to be a dependent on my future partner, nor do i need someone to “fix me” (we all have our demons and areas for self improvement, but that’s not my intent); rather, i want an adult relationship where W/we both behave as adults with responsibilities, but it is a dynamic that emphasizes a primal deep rooted emotional connection with caring/nurturing/affectionate domination, loving female authority, and discipline. Of course, i strongly desire to be devoted and obedient with a desire to please and gain Her loving approval.

Ultimately, my desire for a Mommy/boy dynamic is about the inter-relation – not the trappings of age play.